This new story, T.N.’s View: The Jolt A long tradition in jolting awake, asks why a person stays when abuse, triggers, and trauma are part of the relationship. It is the next part of the series, Relationships: A Battleground of Sexual Trauma and Healing. Jolt takes a snapshot of a reoccurring event and recreates the moment. Here is an … Continue reading T.N.’s View: The Jolt
Good morning! This story focuses on relationships and the battleground they can become when sexual trauma is part of past or present experiences: This series tackles the complicated topic of relationships. It comes from both sides of the sexual conflict where sexual abuse is (or has been) a part of the story. It's especially close … Continue reading The Ugly in Us: T.N. and Andrew’s Story
This snapshot addresses those who barge in, knock politely, or cough, right outside my door. https://medium.com/@tnkelley.me/space-invaders-ead14ab65e31 This is the fourth story in a multi-part series called “Lenses: The Shadow of Sexual Abuse.” You can read more here: https://link.medium.com/zheDi5g8uT If you like what you read, like, comment, and share so I know you’re there!
Sexual abuse started the erosion of my personal space. After the first time, I no longer felt I had a voice about my body, nor the right to establish my boundaries. As a small child, the unspoken rules were absolute. Don’t interrupt grownups. Don’t backtalk grownups. Don’t say shut up. Don’t lie. Now there’s a formula for shitfuckery.
MMMM…More, please. Who’s next? Are we done already? Are you ready for more? Did you cum already? — The Conversation in my Head in·sa·tia·ble/inˈsāSHəb(ə)l (of an appetite or desire) impossible to satisfy. “an insatiable hunger for success” (of a person) having an insatiable appetite or desire for something, especially sex.
Qualifying my slutty or prudeness in society was necessary at an early age. Labeling was a playground rite. In grade school, we knew that unfortunate last names would be the target for “teasing.” As school progressed, teasing turned into shortcutting to the punchline: Labeling. Usually regarding an inappropriate body part. By middle school, labels had taken a firmly sexually charged tone until, by high school, the only label that mattered was, have they or haven’t they gone all the way? Promiscuous or Prude? My own unconscious label was, "Broken" and as I slowely accepted it, I became accustomed to another term: Insatiable...
Good morning! Here is another side of "The Ugly in Us: T.N. and Andrew's Story." This story, Andrew's Side, focuses on relationships and the battleground they can become when sexual trauma is part of past or present experiences: This series tackles the complicated topic of relationships. It comes from both sides of the sexual conflict where sexual … Continue reading Andrew’s View: Maybe Tonight will be Different
link.medium.com/yVboFSElyT This story rings true. Oh so true. Thanks to the author for voicing what so many feel!
Trauma is complicated and broad while being incredibly specific to me. And so I battle it, knowing that I cannot simplify in order to corral and rein in and conquer my pain.
This is what to expect from my writings. It’s my start, and it’s rough, just like most beginnings are. It is my own fucked up, perfect survivor-celebration-story.
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